Coma
Abeer Hoque
My mother, your Dadididn't speak the last months of her life my chhoto foofoo says one afternoon as the fan sails lazily on the dusty spring breeze I stop writing and look up the planes of her face are smooth and flat the darkening age spots, a familiar map she pulls her shawl close firmly with that no nonsense way she has and continues folding clothes into the almari she just lay there, her eyes closed we would turn her, clean her, feed her but she seemed to sleep through it all foofoo's eyes are far away I can tell she is watching Dadi as she sleeps she who ran our house with an iron will everyone always knew where she was whether she raised her voice or not the hawker outside falls silent swallowed into the hush of Uttara's inner streets and now you could almost forget that she was in the room foofoo's lips twist as she speaks it might look like disinterest or perhaps bitterness if you didn't know her better it was years after she died that I learned the word, coma her tone is wondering the English word distorted so I don't even recognise it at first then it settles into the memory lies down with Dadi foofoo closes the almari door I can see her in the mirror as she leaves the room her feet turning out ever so slightly as she walks it must have been that a coma she says to herself Abeer Hoque won the Tanenbaum Award in San Francisco for nonfiction in 2005.
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